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My Journey to My Death

I own nothing to grieve for its loss,
for everything was gone before hope was born.
I live in an unending hell,
in constant suffering that knows no rest,
a hell called My Journey to My Death.

All I possess is poverty and illness,
despair and sorrow,
and my disappointment in the deaf heavens,
that hear not my pleading prayers,
nor answer the cries of my broken heart.

Now, all that remains within me
is a faint hope calling for death,
to come and be my salvation,
to carry me away from my torment,
from my pain, from my exile in life.

Let my words remain after me,
the echo of my memories,
my orphaned pen after my death
speaks of me in silence heard by all.

Do not weep for me when I die,
for I have wept enough for my death while alive.
Rejoice for me,
bless my death,
for it is my final rest,
the mercy I awaited from a cruel fate.

And write upon my gravestone:
"At last, here in my grave,
my torment has ended,
my sorrow and tears are gone.
My death was the mercy of destiny,
long awaited with deep sadness and many tears,
in my journey to my death."

Fady Bouaz 
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Sunday 5/10/2025 

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رحلتي إلى موتي

أنا لا أملك شيئًا لأحزن على فقدانه،
فقد ضاع كل شيء قبل أن يولد الأمل،
أعيش في جحيمٍ لا يهدأ،
في معاناةٍ مستمرةٍ لا تعرف انتهاء،
جحيمٌ اسمه رحلتي إلى موتي.

كل ما أملك العوز والمرض،
واليأس والحزن،
وخيبة أملي في رحمة السماء الصمّاء،
التي لا تسمع دعائي المتوسل،
ولا ترد على أنين قلبي المكسور.

الآن، كل ما تبقى في داخلي
أملٌ صغيرٌ ينادي الموت،
ليأتي ويكون خلاصي،
ليحملني بعيدًا عن عذابي،
عن وجعي، عن غربتي في الحياة.

لتبقى من بعدي كلماتي،
صدى ذكرياتي،
قلمي اليتيم بعد مماتي
يحكي عني بصمتٍ يسمعه الجميع.

لا تبكوا عليّ عندما أموت،
فقد بكيتُ كثيرًا على موتي وأنا حي،
ابتهجوا من أجلي،
باركوا لي موتي،
فهو راحتي الأخيرة،
هو رحمتي المنتظرة من قدرٍ قاسٍ.

واكتبوا على بلاطة قبري:
"أخيرًا هنا في قبري،
انتهى عذابي،
انتهى حزني وبكائي،
موتي كان رحمة القدر،
التي انتظرتها بفارغ الصبر،
بحزنٍ كبيرٍ وبكاءٍ كثير،
في رحلتي إلى موتي."

فادي بوعز
جميع الحقوق محفوظة ©️
الأحد 5/10/2025 

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