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To be this is my only one choice

I believed in God all my life
I helped the others even if I don't know them
I gave everything to help
But I am alone from a long time
No one remembers me, only if needs me
No one appreciates me
Now I don't have anything
No money nothing
I live as God willing and provides
But now I am in financial crisis
I don't have money to buy food unfortunately
I am starving now
With my only one choice
Or I die starving or I kill myself
I pray to God as I prayed to Him always
But He never listenen to my prayers 
I trusted God always
But He is always destroying my dreams
and killing my hopes
even in His mercy on me
Unfortunately God destroyed my faith in Him
This is what He wants
and never be what I want 
I am telling honestly
my sad miserable life story really
Please don't judge me
God whom killed my faith in Him and not me
And before you blame me
Try to live without money and food
with sickness and cold weather
with one dream that you die
to you take rest from God torment always
As His punishment for your only one sin 
You believe in God
and trust Him and love Him always
And now He looks at me
by His eyes of no caring
And He continues pushing me to kill myself 
To be this is my only one choice

@FadyBouaz
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Friday 20/12 /2019

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