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Now I know

Now I know how much I love you, how much I want to be with you always, how much I care and worry about you
But my dear love 
Now I know that so too late, unfortunately
I was not loyal for you in the beginning, I betrayed you many times, as if a dark magic was on my heart, trying to kill my love for you
But I was always thinking about you
My heart always in big love for you reminds me that I love you only 
I couldn't forget you or stop loving you
My heart is free now from that dark magic that tried to stop it from loving you 
My soul refuses to be convinced that you are not my lost half 
My soul still loves you and miss you always
I am so sad now and I regret that I have hurt you and pushed you away
I hate myself now as I feel big love for you
I remember my guilt when I remember you
I feel shame that I was betrayer for my love you
I hope that you will can forgive me someday 
But how I will can ask you for forgiveness if I can't forgive myself
And now unfortunately, my life conditions are so bad
I can't dream now in beautiful future days
So that I am hesitant to say that I love you 
Because I can't promise you now that I will marry you someday
I am not sure that I will be able to fulfill my promise for you
But I know that I am in big sadness because I can't be with you always really
I need to put my sad head on your lovely chest, 
in order to take rest from my big sadness and feel comfortable when I feel your warmth
And because I am now so sad near to cry that I am not sure that I will can marry you
Now I know how much I love you forever
Now I know how much I am so sorry that I can't be with you really
Now I know that always forever I love you only
Now I know that just you whom I want to be my life partner
I hope that I knew then what I know now 
My best wishes for you always, take care of yourself always, be happy and blessed always, God bless you always

@FadyBouaz
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Sunday 26/1 /2020

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